wafblog v3.0

Or at least, my web life. Time that I could be spending constructively (blogging… uhm, I can’t think of anything else) has now been devoured by the ‘social utility’ webpage that is…. Facebook. It really should be called a social menace. But, everyday, I find myself going to there – to see who has added who, if anybody has new photos, what new groups I can join and more recently, what new applications I can stuff into my profile page. Admittedly, it’s made very easy some of the things I wanted to do with this blog. Like, movie reviews! And snap-in Last.FM playlist! And book lists! And soon I hope… game lists! So yeah. I’ll sit at Tichondrius and next thing I know…. four hours have rolled by. Must learn discipline.

I have come to realise that my life is currently this:

Monday-Thurday: Work. If do not finish in time, take work home.
Friday: Work. Go to closest bar. Drink lots of alcimahol. Eat. Drink more. Go to K. Drink more. Go home.
Saturday: Go out. Random events. Try to fit in: dentist appointments, meeting friends, spending time with boy. Usually there’s alcohol involved at night.
Sunday: Rest. Get told off by parents.

I really should try to drink less. Or at least, not be so intent on drinking such large amounts such that I have lose control. But that’s the appeal isn’t it? To lose that control. I suspect I have blogged about this before. And perhaps this is boring. But I think somewhere, in the back of my mind – I know that I shouldn’t need to. I shouldn’t get to a Friday and want that drink (or four). I was asked if I felt like I had something to prove. I probably do. Not sure why. Maybe I’m trying to live up the life that I thought other people were having when I was in uni or whatever. That I didn’t have because I would go home and be good. Or whatever. Somehow this sounds stupid when I try to rationalise it.

Met up with people from uni on the weekend. We went to the Redoak Boutique Beer Cafe! I haven’t seen a lot of people from uni for a while and it’s always good to catch up. Found that people had fragmented into their small groups even more than before and didn’t really get to talk to some of them. That’s probably more my fault than anything. I get comfy with the people that I do talk to and as much as I’ve learnt to be more social, I, like everyone else, tend to stick to the things I know. And then complain that I don’t see enough people or know what’s going on with my friends. So I really should make more effort to keep up. Now to find the time….  I did however, get to try a blackberry beer. And a bunch of others that I don’t know the names to because they came with my food. Must go there again!!

I whinge a lot on here don’t I? Maybe because it’s the outlet for all the bad stuff. Or the stuff that sits on my mind and I don’t really tell people because it’s mainly introspection. My life probably isn’t as bad as I make it out to be. Although recently I can’t seem to do anything right by mum. Which again, is my fault. I should’ve put more effort into her birthday. But this whole her being sick thing, I do not believe makes me the most awful daughter in the world. I do care – and I do make sure she’s ok. Maybe I just don’t do in the way she wants. I got like half a dozen lectures recently, which were all topped off with a “I’ve given up on you ever showing me a little bit of love”. Far out. My parents have never really been the type of parents to be all cuddly with their child or whatever. And we never talk about our feelings or whatever. That’s some other family in some other universe. So what I don’t get, is why all of a sudden that’s meant to be MY family? And why I get lambasted for it? I must’ve missed something somewhere… I’m just not sure where.

So, yesterday was the first “Manda and Rosi’s Friday Drinks” at The Arthouse. Heh, think it went pretty well. Finally got to do absinthe properly. God, it burned. It’s kind of weird, I’ve always read about people who find that the taste of alcohol ‘burns’ their throat. And sure, sometimes doing straight shots there’s a funny tingly feeling. But not ‘burning’. Well, glad to say, I was wrong. Because the absinthe BUUUURRRNS. It was pretty damn cool :P So yeah, now I just need to save up again so I can afford to drink next month. Somehow didn’t get to the happy place as quickly this time, even though I was more tired. I’m guessing the lack of beer had something to do with it? Who knows. Was fun all round anyways. And we had PIE afterwards. So hey, the night was complete!

See, we even got our own sign!

Thanks go to Maiku for this cool as link to online database, Lazybase. I checked it out, think you just fixed my problem of how to get my MS Access database of my DVD collection onto the web. So, here it is: http://lazybase.com/wafdvd/. You can check all of it out there and see what DVDs I’ve got. If you’re nice, I’ll even let you borrow one or two :P

This is the only lonely picture
Waiting on my floor littering my shore
This is the last true burning letter
Given to a girl
Written by a boy
Living in a world
Created to destroy

But if I built you a city
Would you let me in?
Would you tear it down?

This is your ghost that kneels before me
Razors on her tongue, a body full of oxygen
It won’t be the last time she’ll ignore me
Thinning in my skin
Without the strength, to go
Winter setting in
To cover you in snow

But there you go for the last time
I finally know what I should have known then
And I could still be ruthless if you let me
But there you go when I’m not done
You’re waving goodbye well at least you’re having fun
the rising tide will not let you forget me
forget me
forget me
forget me, yeah

I’ll raise towers and climb them
Rivers and walk them
Oceans to drown in
you won’t make a sound in

But there you go for the last time
I finally know what I should have known then
And I could still be ruthless if you let me
But there you go when I’m not done
You’re waving goodbye well at least you’re having fun
the rising tide will not let you forget me

Something Corporate – Ruthless

There’s something about being intoxicated that tends to leave you feeling pretty good. I’m not sure if it’s just the general inebriation or the lack of the self-control that does it for me. Anyways, needless to say, I drank more alcohol than I have in a long time and I’m waiting for the effects to wear off. I shall be sleeping soon I think. Although, might make a phone call.

Been kind of busy lately – getting stuck into thesis, watching TV shows, work, and general laziness :P I spent most of Thursday trying to get my stuff working in Linux. I’ve not programmed Java for over 2 years – I remember the constructs but not the finer details of things that are “static” and not static. I remember what encapsulation *is*, but not the best way to implement it. *sigh*. And I’m basically Linux illiterate – so it’s a little frustrating when you know what you want to do, but lack the knowledge of how to do it. >.<

Anyways, as I mentioned yesterday, I read this article about food allergies. As most of my friends know, I suffer from a few food allergies, the most severe being peanuts. I was reading through the comments on the page and found it quite interesting the things people had written, whether they be allergy sufferers or not. I think over the past 5 years, the awareness of food allergies has certainly increased although the misinformation associated with it has not.

I’m not a fan of ‘nut-free’ schools. I don’t believe that school children should be kept in a ‘bubble’. People who have allergies should learn to manage them and always be aware of the risks, because no one but themselves is responsible for their health and wellbeing. That being said, I too, wondered why a company like Subway would introduce a satay product onto their menu. Considering the type of food that subway sells, I would not hesitate to say that they are likely to attract people who suffer from food allergies. Simply because their food is fresh, and you can see what’s gone into your meal. However, adding something like satay chicken onto the menu means there’s a higher chance of contamination. Why risk an already established customer base by introducing a menu item that’s likely to see them never come back again? It doesn’t make sense.

Anyways, those laminated cards with the translations for food allergies sound like a bloody brilliant idea to me. I can’t believe someone didn’t think of them sooner. I’m looking to travel overseas later this year and I wasn’t going to go to any South-East Asian countries (and this hasn’t changed my mind), but I know that I still need to be really careful. I just hope that I’ll have enough dosh to afford to travel >.<