I Should’ve Known Better
So, I enrolled in two subjects for the Deakin conversion course. This course will effectively allow me to start CA without having to do any sort of exam or whatever. It’s to make up for not doing all the CA required subjects at uni. I’m not too fussed about that – I preferred to have the 2 majors, as I was not certain I would end up doing CA.
Anyways, so this semester I’m studying Taxation and Commercial Law. Sounds like a great combination for being “bored to death”. I ordered my textbooks and they arrived a couple of days later. I’ve yet to get cracking into the study though. I really need to budget in time for this – it’s easy to say that I will study later, but it’s not like I’m going to suddenly have time. So yeah. really… I just need to find the discipline.
In addition, I’ve added this as a “goal” to my 43 things profile. We’ll see how this goes.
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Girlie punk… admittedly these guys aren’t too bad. I think I prefer Simple Plan LOL, but these guys have some good shout out loud songs. They’re also touring Australia later this year. Managed to get my hands on the “Rock Am Ring” concert they did with Linkin Park. Of course, they don’t hold a candle to LP, but… they do a pretty good live show. I am absolutely brimming with excitement - LINKIN PARK ARE COMING TO OZ!!!! So yes, my membership to LPU is going to pay off! I chose a good year to join :D This is the one concert I’ve always said I’d pay any money to see. Pre-sales open tomorrow, so we’ll see how good I am at getting choice tix~! Anyways, so onto this song.. I think I just like the simplicity of the lyrics. To be honest, there’s no… “deeper meaning”. It’s just simple, and honest. And sometimes I feel like this.
In the beginning, I tried to warn you
You play with fire, its gonna burn you
And here we are now, in the same situation,
You never listen, I never listen
Now I am thinking of a way that I can make an escape
It’s got me caught up in a web and my hearts the prey
Do you really wanna throw your heart away, away, away?
Everybody’s hurt somebody before
Everybody’s been hurt by somebody before
You can change but you will always come back for more
Its a game and we are all just victims of love.
Don’t try to fight it, victims of love
You can’t decide it, victims of love, victims of love
Now you’ve back tracked
You’re running away cause it just happened again and you don’t want it to end
Trying your best to not let yourself go cold, so cold.
Now you think about the things you thought you wanted to say
But when you open up your mouth it don’t come out that way
Are you really gonna throw your heart away?
Everybody’s hurt somebody before
Everybody’s been hurt by somebody before
You can change but you will always come back for more
Its a game and we are all just victims of love.
Don’t try to fight it, victims of love
You can’t decide it, victims of love, victims of love
You never listen, I never listen
Now I am thinking of a way that I can make an escape
It’s got me caught up in a web and my hearts the prey
Do you really wanna throw your heart away, away, away?
Good Charlotte - Victims of Love
So, I want to quickly get out some thoughts on DH before I go reading everybody’s reviews.
Overall, I was quite impressed.
Needless to say, HBP to me, was by far the worst book. Influenced greatly by my dislike of the R/Hr and H/G ships… I’m glad that the series has been redeemed by a very fitting ending. The book was fast-paced, I was literally clutching the pages in suspense quite a few times.
I was so impressed that JKR managed to tie up so many loose ends, touched upon every book so far and managed as well, to wrangle out some twists on things that we had previously read about. I’ll try to break up my thoughts into proper topics…
BEWARE: Spoilers contained inside!
Continue reading ‘And so it ends: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows…’
So, being sick for 3 days gives you a lot of time to reflect on things. Well, that’s not reeaaally true. I’d already been reflecting on some of this. I think this whole being sick *AGAIN* has just made me think about it more. Yes. I am sick again. So annoyed at myself. I know I should not have pushed my body so far when I was sick the first time and even though I was recovering, I shouldn’t have been stupid and gone out and stuff >.<
I think I’ve just reached that time of the year again, where I question what the point of life is. And I still don’t know what that point is. Sure, I can be content in my job, with my friends, family… all that. I just am not sure if I’m missing something bigger. Is there more to life than what I’m doing now? Will this feeling ever change? I suppose not, and even if I went looking for more, I doubt that I would find it. I doubt that I would find an answer to the ‘meaning’ of life. Something to make me feel more satisfied. I wonder sometimes at whether my job is rewarding - not in monetary terms, but in a ‘contributing to society’ sort of way. I suppose it does. Much of the work we do provides assurance to the investors of the companies we audit. Which is an important function for the market and whatever, but I’m not entirely sure that this actually gives *me* job satisfaction. I dunno. I’ve been questioning it a lot lately, which is strange, because mostly I’ve tended to think of a job as a means to an end, and if I wasn’t particularly happy with my job I wasn’t too worried as I’ve always considered other things to be more important. Like friends, family. Maybe I was wrong about that - and maybe I want more from my job. Perhaps I just haven’t been there long enough to see the real ‘big picture’ just yet.
I think I’ve also come to realise that my priorities have been a bit off since I started working full-time. I knew that this job would be hard, I knew that it would demand a lot of my time and I knew that I would have to put a lot of energy into it if I wanted to succeed. I just didn’t think it would be this much. And maybe I didn’t think it would take this much of me. I’m not sure that I’m happy with the way it’s eaten my life. I don’t get to see my friends or my family as much as I would like to. Half the time, I don’t even know what’s going on with my best friend… that’s not the sort of friendship that I want. I come home feeling drained and don’t want to do anything more than sit in front of my computer and zone out. I don’t have the time or energy to pursue the things that I find interesting or want to learn more about. I have no hobbies and no time for band. I’m liking less and less that this is the case because I do not want to be defined by my job. I don’t believe that you should be define by your job, I don’t believe that it should be the only thing in your life. And I suppose I’m the only one that can control that. I guess I just haven’t been. So it’s time for me to re-organise my priorities, to determine what is important to me and what I should put more time towards. It’s time to learn to say no, and it’s time to say I need to be me.
So I finally got around to formatting Azshara. This doesn’t seem like big news I’m sure, but for me it is a big deal. It means I can finally use the wi-fi and blog from bed. Or surf the web or waste time on Facebook. Unfortunately, it is now 3am, and I am so buggered from the most stressful week ever that I will probably just go to bed without even finishing this blog. I’m sitting in the dark, typing, and I’m having trouble keeping my eyes open. Maybe it was the Dimetapp tablets I took early. I love the pseudoephedrine drugs… I’ve had this flu for like 2-3 weeks now and it just won’t go away. I was taking Codral but that didn’t work so I stopped. Finally decided to try the drugs that you need to show your license for. They work better - but I haven’t fully recovered yet. This is somewhat annoying as it’s really the cough that I haven’t been able to shake and it’s affecting my asthma so I’m taking more drugs (again).
I’m not really sure this needs an introduction… those of you who know how to code and understand netspeak will probably find this as amusing as I do. Or you might just find it lame. Can you imagine writing an entire program in LOLCODE though? I think I might try later on :D