Today did not turn out anything like I had planned. Normally I’m quite good at rolling with the punches and picking myself up if things don’t go my way. It’s a skill I picked up at work and comes in handy in most areas of my life. But today, today it just seemed to escape me. I was meant to meet up with a friend, go see a movie & grab a bite to eat. I managed to wake up early (no easy feat for me) and was happy with myself. Anyways, was all ready to go and hopped into the car to find that it wouldn’t start. I had a bit of trouble with the remote but didn’t think much of it until the car alarm started going off and what-not. In our attempts to find out the cause, I think we set the alarm off a further four times. Needless to say, the immobiliser was also activated and there no chance of me going anywhere in the car. Not long after this, my friend called to say that he’d hurt himself with some machinery and it required medical attention. These aren’t things that you can plan for, and really, no one’s to blame for these things happening. It’s just life, and sometimes life throws you ridiculous curve balls. I’m not a religious or superstitious person, but at one point, I just wanted to throw my hands up in exasperation and say “why god, why?!”. I had a brief thought that maybe I’d screwed up majorly and this was karma coming to get me.
I’ve come to realise that I spend a majority of the week looking forward to the next weekend. It’s the only time I can spend not having to ‘fit the mold’ and I can just be me. I look forward to meeting with friends, catching a movie, seeing a concert or whatever. This week has been particularly long and I guess I just wanted something to go my way. I was more upset at not meeting my friend than I thought I’d be and that threw me for a loop. Not sure if it was just the combination of a long week, not having the energy to deal or something more. Time will tell.
The day did pick up in the arvo – I went to a friend’s place to play board games. This is usually pretty fun and I enjoy learning new games. I’m actually not that good at strategising I don’t think, but sometimes I get lucky. Think I might sleep and hope that tomorrow is a better day.