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And why’d you say
It’s just another day, nothing in my way
I don’t wanna go, I don’t wanna stay
So there’s nothing left to say
And why’d you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don’t know what you lie for anyway
Now there’s nothing left to say

My uncle came over from HK and stayed with us from Thursday to Tuesday. I’ve spent most of the last few days going out to dinner and on Saturday we went down to Wollongong. The first three photos were taken from the Sea Cliff Bridge down near Coal Cliff. It was opened in December last year, the view is pretty amazing, because the bridge is off the edge of the cliff. It was a bit of shame that it rained while we were there, but it was a nice walk anyways. Only takes about 30 minutes to do a round trip, so that was my exercise for the weekend. The 4th photo shows the really disturbing view of Wollongong showing rather obscene amounts of smoke coming out from the stacks… I was pretty surprised when I saw it. I’m not sure if there’s a smelter/steelworks/coal factory there, so maybe that explains it.

We ended up going all the way down to the blow hole at Kiama, which was really awesome because the sea was quite choppy. Makes for good blowhole (= And because the sun was starting to come out, we got to see rainbow! In fact, in the next photo, there’s two (although the second one is very very faint). And the colours are reversed from the inner one. It was pretty cool to see the full arch of the rainbow as well, cos normally you only manage to see half. Of course, the camera on my phone just isn’t capable of capturing that sort of beauty… I really have to look into getting a decent digital camera.

On Sunday, we went to Bondi for breakfast (I had this big brekkie that I’m still trying to work off at the gym) and then went on to the fish markets. I haven’t been to the fish markets in AGES, but there were heaps of people there. Most of them looked like they were there for lunch… not that many people were buying seafood. Anyways, saw these two pelicans in the carpark.. they didn’t seem at all bothered by all the people and cars around.

Haven’t been up to much else. I’m kind of glad my uncle is gone as he is very tiring… he says weird things to me, and everything has to be perfect and people always have to be doing something. I like my weekends to be relaxing, not full of arguing with other people. *sigh*. Thank god I’m not going to work tomorrow. I can see now why people who work for the Government have an ADO every four weeks. After that much full time work, you need it! Otherwise you’ll go crazy or get grumpy and be unproductive. I am rather pissed though, that I get a 30 minute limit EACH DAY on accessing the SMH website. This makes it difficult to read the news and access other interesting things. I have discovered though that I can read my LJ friends page but they’ve blocked eBay again. It’s like some sort of random lucky draw. I’m going to try and RSS feed the news articles into one webpage that I can put on my server so I can access them from work.

Had another session with the personal trainer. He’s taught a few useful exercises. But, if I want to continue session it costs $35/half hour. That’s BLOODY EXPENSIVE!!! So I think I might just have one session a fortnight, which means I’m paying about $36/week for gym + training. I think that’s a bit more affordable and reasonable. Maybe I should become a personal trainer… seems like a fairly fun job.

Well for a lonely soul, you’re having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you’re having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you’re having such a nice time
You’re having such a nice time
Keane – Nothing In My Way

So, my exam results were FINALLY released today.
I’ve been waiting and waiting for the last two weeks and getting frustrated because the number of people doing Comp Eng is like 30… so dunno why it took so LONG. But it doesn’t matter now cos they’re out! Ya-woot!
I got 75 for my thesis and 69 for Comp Eng. I’m pretty happy with that considering I was worried I hadn’t done enough work for my thesis and I failed the midsem for Comp Eng. I can breathe a giant sigh of relief now, and sit back and relax. All good :D

I feel really ill today. I felt ill as soon as I woke up, and it hasn’t really let up since then. I probably shouldn’t have drunk my normal morning coffee, but I was so tired I doubt I would’ve woken up without it. I’m not sure what’s wrong, but my stomach hurts and I feel a little nauseous. Maybe my stomach is protesting my meals from the weekend.

Had a pretty good weekend actually. On Saturday went to Animania thing which was alright. There’s a lot of stuff you assume you know, because it’s common sense but sometimes it’s nice to be reminded cos there’s a lot of skills that are applicable in all areas of your life and there’s no need to limit it to one. I am sure my body hates me for eating that much KFC for lunch though. Went to karaoke after, which was lots of fun. We were only there for an hour or so, but got to sing a bunch of good songs. we had to stop halfway through some of them to get to ‘Lemon Tree’ (which is a cool song :P), but we did get there and got to sing it :D I haven’t been to k for a while, so it was nice to do something different. They don’t have a great selection of songs though – or maybe we were just looking for songs that aren’t popular at k?

Saturday night was another “Rosi and Amanda’s Drinks” thing. Although this was more of a ‘farewell to Maiku’ thing because he’s going off to Japan (forever) at the end of the month. Drinks was good. Didn’t actually drink much, but caught up with a few people that I hadn’t seen in a while and it was interesting to see what they’re up to nowadays. Seems like a lot of people are moving out or trying to find new places to live. I still want to move out, but it’s so expensive at the moment and I think my tolerance for my parents has increased. Or I’m more understanding of where they’re coming from. That doesn’t mean I agree with them though.

Dinner was massive. There’s no other word for it. We got a set menu from Macchiato’s for $25/person. There was lots of pizza and pasta and by the time dessert came out I was so fully stuffed I couldn’t fit anymore in! So it was definitely worth it and I was really impressed with the amount of food we received. I don’t think anyone could complain about a lack of food!

Yesterday, I went to Disney On Ice at the Acer Arena. I decided to drive there as I need more hours so I can go sit for my P’s. My dad wanted me to take a different route to the one that I know, and so we got to Olympic Park and took a wrong turn. So we spent another 10 mins driving around the park trying to find the arena… There were no signs and by this time I was running a bit late. Eventually found ourselves at a familiar place, but following the signs the arena led us OUT of Olympic Park. Like, wtf? Anyways, eventually found my way there, and only missed like 2 minutes of the beginning of the show. It was pretty good – I went once when I was seven so I don’t really remember much. This one had Nemo and The Incredibles so it was quite ‘new’. Some of the figure skating moves were really good. I just like the way they combine all the different movies into one ‘storyline’, and the costumes were pretty amazing. There was a big big whale for Pinocchio and that looked very impressive :D There were lots of little annoying kids everywhere, but I suppose that’s who the show is aimed at so you can’t really complain huh. Went to dinner at Leichhardt afterwards, but that’s nothing special.

Other than that, I’m going to start cleaning my room a bit more cos my uncle is coming over from HK on Thursday… that’ll keep me busy!

I’m so happy for you
I could cry
Yeah, I’m so elated
Cross my heart and hope to die

I don’t normally remember my dreams. Most of the time I wake up and I don’t remember dreaming at all. Other times, I’ll wake up and have a few lingering images in my head. About a week ago, I had the most bizarre dream. Someone I know (and I won’t name who), was trying to kill me. And it was in this weird stalkerish way. I was walking down the street with a friend and this person would come and taunt me. It wasn’t violent or gory, and I woke up before anything particularly unpleasant happened. I just feel really weirded out for like, the next three days. I think I’m *still* weirded out about it, because the person I dreamed was trying to kill me is someone I actually know and would consider a friend. I just found it really unnerving because usually I won’t remember what I’ve dreamed, and honestly, I don’t really remember ever having a nightmare like most people do. I’ve never dreamed that I was falling into a bottomless pit. This is the first time I’ve ever (remembered) dreaming about being chased like that.

But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores of freedom,
Where no one lives.

Onto more pleasant things, I had my first session with my personal trainer yesterday. My body is punishing me today. My arms/shoulders hurt from doing push ups (I only managed 8 proper ones \:) and my thighs hurt from the run. But, I did rightly guess that I could only make it 5 minutes running. The personal trainer seems pretty nice, and good at motivating people. However, his favourite phrase is “challenge your body”, closely followed by “overcome the challenge”. That is somewhat aggravating, but I get what he’s saying and what he’s trying to do. And honestly, I’ll achieve much more if I have some goals than if I keep going the way I normally do and don’t push myself. I just have to remember not to take the stairs the next day.

But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores of freedom,
Where no one lives

I’m sweating it out at the moment, waiting for my uni results to come out. The MyUni thing says that official results will be mailed out mid July. Well it’s mid July dammit, so why aren’t they at least online? So I am a little worried about my marks, but really I just want them back so I can move onto other things and know that uni is finished. I guess I just want to have one less thing to worry over. I must be one of the most impatient people around, so I hope they realise this and send my results SOON.

I wanna be the first to call and tell you
Yesterday I heard the news
I hear you oughtta be congratulated
So I guess that’s what I’ll do

I’m a bit confused at the moment. I’m not entirely sure I know what it is I want anymore. Or it’s like that work/love/house triumvirate thing is not all it could be. (If you don’t get the reference – watch ‘Secret Life Of Us’). I’ve got the work part, and it’s going well. Job’s good, a bit boring, but most days there’s something new and I’m not looking at exactly the same spreadsheet. The house thing is ok too. Parents are a little more relaxed than they were before, and I’ve got more freedom to go out and do what I want. It’s a really good feeling although I keep having this feeling that my parents are going to turn around and find some reason to stop me from going out and doing what I want. So that leaves the last part. I guess I just want concrete answers. I want to know where I should be heading, and what I should be preparing myself for. Everyone reacts differently, and everyone deals differently. That’s cool. I react by shutting down. Or annoying my closest friends with the incessant need to dissect everything into little pieces. I guess that’s just how it works. I don’t like uncertainty. It’s much much easier to make decisions if you know all the facts. Which comes back to Rosi’s current philosophy that you make your decisions based on what you know at the time and you have to be satisfied you made the right decision. That whole no regrets thing didn’t work out so well.

I don’t think about you every night
Before I close my eyes
I’m so happy for you baby,
I could cry.

So I was pokin’ ’round the net… as I’m likely to do on occasion and I found this:
The Girl Code.
I found this rather amusing, because as much as it’s a Girl Code I think a lot of it’s grounded in the Friend Code. Anyway, I particularly like point number 11:

# Dissuade your sister from cheapening herself. Steer her away from destructive dating habits like becoming a psycho stalker, a crazy ass bitch, sex with the ex, being a rebound girl, the other woman or joining a harem.

So I’m putting you all on notice, if I join a harem you weren’t following the code. (=

Work is hectic still… but I’m enjoying it. I want to go out more, but I’m also a lazy arse so sometimes I just want to go home and sleep. Been feeling a little anti-social lately but I think that’s to be expected, it should pass soon.

I’ve started cleaning my room. I’m come to realise that I really don’t have enough space in my room/house for all the things I have. I have to learn to throw things out. There’s no point keeping them “just in case”. I’ll likely never use the stuff later on and it’ll just sit there collecting dust. Also need to practise violin. Can’t say much else except LAZY. Grr. It’s rather frustrating to be mad at yourself for something you can fix huh?

I’m hoping have some time to work on this blog as well. Start coding again, learn new things. The internet’s been a bit boring lately, and I’m not as into fandom things as before so I need to fill my time with other things. Wouldn’t mind if people were to join me in coding, it’s usually fun to collaborate and work with friends cos you get more ideas that way.

Not sure why I like this song – it’s not a situation I’ve ever been in, nor is it how I’m feeling at the moment. I like the singing, and I guess the emotion behind the song. I’ve been listening to it a lot recently, so here it is.

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He’s more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I’m gone again
To him I just can’t be true

And I know that he knows I’m unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin’

I don’t wanna do this anymore
I don’t wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don’t wanna hurt him anymore
I don’t wanna take away his life
I don’t wanna be…. a murderer

I feel it in the air
As I’m doin my hair
Preparing for another day
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I’m gonna be out late
I say I won’t be long
Just hangin’ with the girls
A lie I didn’t have to tell
Because we both know
Where I’m about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I’m unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I’m happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin’

I don’t wanna do this anymore
I don’t wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don’t wanna hurt him anymore
I don’t wanna take away his life
I don’t wanna be…. a murderer

Our love… his trust
I might as well take a gun
And put it to his head
Get it over with
I don’t wanna do this… anymore

Oooohhh… anymore

I don’t wanna do this anymore
I don’t wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don’t wanna hurt him anymore
I don’t wanna take away his life
I don’t wanna be…. a murderer

…a murderer
No no no
yeah yeah yeah
Rihanna – Unfaithful