wafblog v3.0

restless. very restless… angry too. not sure what’s wrong. wish ppl would stop demanding things from me, stop pushing me to do stuff. just want to sit. rest. relax… have some down time. just need to be by myself for a bit… can’t handle too much i don’t think. not sure? scared of being controlled.. scared of being suffocated. i really need my freedom, the freedom to do what i want with my own life, not have other ppl tell me what to do, force me to make decisions i don’t want to. i guess i just want to know that i’m the one in control of my life, so if it fucks up that’s my problem. and i guess i don’t feel in control. shambly again. why now? so close to uni… maybe frustrated.. need to take charge of my life a bit more. sometimes it feels like it’s spiralling out of control. but i don’t want ppl to tell me “it’ll be ok”. cos that doesn’t accomplish anything. it’s like, i don’t know what to say so i’ll just say something.

fuck.
why am i so angry?
… i need sleep.

i’ve lost my driver’s license somewhere in the mess that is my room. rather annoyed.