wafblog v3.0

went to uni to study again. didn’t really get much done, but had some good conversations about marriage and de facto relationships. seem to be having more convos related to those topics now. maybe it’s a reflection of where we are in our lives. maybe we’re just readying ourselves for the next stage. wondering what it’ll be like when we get there…

had a great time today, taking more photos for operation snapshot (: chez, angie and i did charlie’s angels poses in our pyjamas. poor su, she knew we walked out, but had no idea where we went or why. it was pretty funny tho, cos she came looking for us, so we had to get changed back out of our pj’s. and then, when the coast was clear, we scurried from elec eng. to mechanical eng. to throw her off the trail. mind you, this was with the three of us wearing boxers and t-shirts, looking like idiots. or, ‘real engineers’ :P it’s not everyday you get to walk around uni in your pj’s, so that’s definitely an experience to remember!

trying to get back to my sleep-before-12 regime… plus i’m feeling sick in the stomach. probs something i ate. i hope it’s not stress.

mm.. anniversary (: 4 months (: i must say, i’m happy. at least, i’m happy with my relationship. i don’t think i could ask for more. it’s been more than i could hope for, and so much more than i expected. i know in the end, that i’m lucky to have somebody that cares about me and accepts me for who i am. and for that i’m thankful. because i need that stability in my life, and somebody to remind me that it’s not really that bad and that there are things in this world worth living for.

on the other hand, i’m not actually happy. quite.. i dunno… grumpy? depressed? i don’t even know what to call it. somewhat not content with my life at the moment. partly due to stress from exams i think. partly due to lot of things building up. it’s funny to look back and think that in some ways, i’m not in any different a position to 6 months ago. even with everything that’s happened. the same stoopid things that existed then still do. only now, they piss me off. i’m sick of it, not wanting to deal with it anymore, done everything i can and i’m still here. still in this same damn stoopid thing. and i’m told that, despite me trying my hardest to be optimistic, what i was suspected all along was true. and then you wonder, why do you bother? why not just assume the worst in every situation, life will always just fuck up. but i’m not that sort of person.

mmm.. time for a song of the week. because it’s another one of those things that i’ve always wanted to do properly, but never got around to. my friend (jeff) burnt me a cd with a bunch of wc3 maps and in the space left over, chucked in a few mp3s. of these was the new 3 doors down album, where i found this little beauty. it’s probably what’s contributing to my mood, but it’s such a beautiful song, i have it on repeat. just by itself.. it’s oddly soothing.

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
But tonight girl it’s only you and me