so i feel like shit right now. and i’m not sure why. maybe it’s the upcoming exams, maybe it’s just too many things getting to me. i’m not even sure why i’m letting them get to me. been pretty busy lately. not sure with what, tho. went out on the weekend… met up with mike and su. hehe.. that was a riot. we made mike try on clothes. (: i have to admit he did look pretty spunky in some of them, even if he doesn’t think so. pity no camera, or i definitely would have gotten a photo of the tank top!
i think i’m half feeling shit cos i’m sick of dealing with other ppl’s selfishness and inconsiderateness. like, with operation snapshot.. i don’t want to have to beg ppl to do it. they should want to do it cos they’re friends with su, and they want to do something to show that. but NO.. you give ppl 2 weeks notice, you tell them what’s needed and they still don’t do as asked, and tell you they’re busy and blah. and there’s not a damn thing you can do about it, without sounding like a complete bitch. and i don’t want to do that. cos at the end of the day, i’m not the one answerable to su am i? maybe not.. but doesn’t mean i don’t feel it’s my responsibility.
so manda told me today that i’ve developed an attitude. not as bad as the beginning of this year (which is probs a good thing), but an attitude none the less. and i’ve kinda noticed it myself. i’m beginning to wonder if it’s a by-product of not wanting to deal with ppl’s shit. or i’m just tired. maybe it’s both…. but i know i’ve been sounding like a real bitch lately, and that’s not me. it’s not the sort of person i am. and i don’t like being it. i don’t know what to do to change it tho, i don’t know if it’s consciously controllable. i guess i’ll just have to try.
in other news, i’m treasurer for HackySoc again. the voting was so dodgy, i don’t know if i should be proud, or appalled. but nevertheless, i’m in it for another year, so hopefully this coming year will be bigger and better and more organised, and we’ll have lots of fun and make lots of money! *cheers*. or something.
i’m quite proud i can play scarborough fair on the guitar now :D and auld lang syne, and greensleaves. i’ve basically finished book 1 of this teach yourself guitar thing. but, i still need to practise some stuff, cos i can’t stretch my fingers that much and it’s really uncomfortable. probably because i’m not used to it, i’m not sure. but i haven’t been playing for that long, so there’s always time (: i haven’t been practising violin tho. 15 mins a day was all i was aiming for, but guitar kinda took over… i need to be more disciplined, or i’m going to forget all my skills and that would be such a waste.
anyways, implementing new sleep system. bed before 12. heh. let’s see how it goes (:
