wafblog v3.0

in the middle of finishing my metrics assignment. it’s 2:46am. and i have so much to say. firstly, i just want it to be stated that i hate group work with ppl i don’t know. especially when they don’t contact you, make decisions without informing you, and they don’t know what they’re doing so you’re stuck staying up till insane times at night trying desperately to read the last 6 weeks of notes and hopefully understand enough to answer the questions. i guess i’m no better than them.

the other thing on my mind is whether or not i’ve just made the biggest mistake of my life. i’ve just put one of my closest friendships on the line, because i can’t hack anymore. because i’m hurting the ppl around me, everytime a certain friend hurts me. and of course, i’m not in this alone. so i’m wondering if it’ll turn out the way we want. the happy ending. the one that you hope against hope for. and i must say, my lack of faith is disturbing. have things really come to a point that i can’t even see some hope for things getting better? maybe i’m too bitter and cynical for my own good. maybe i just know the situation too well. i’m scared. i’m scared the plan will backfire, and i will regret it. yet, i know if i don’t, that i will regret that too. cos i’ve always regretted not taking action when i could. and now, i guess yeah, now is the time. before we give up, and walk away completely, before we decide there’s nothing worth salvaging, we can give him a chance to fix things. redeem himself. prove us wrong. and maybe, just maybe. everything will work out for the best.

i guess it makes me ponder friendship, and what ppl are willing to do for their friends. i mean, if you’re putting your friendship on the line with the best intentions for the other person, it’s risking more than you can imagine. and what will you think 10 years down the track? will you hate yourself for it? or will you see that that was the decision you made and there was nothing else you could do? we always have a choice, we’re told. sometimes, it just doesn’t seem that way.